Have you ever had a Real Life Surreal Moment? I have them now and then. But usually, they only last a second or two. Today I had one that lasted a couple minutes. It kept coming back in waves.
First, let me give you the anatomy of a Real Life Surreal Moment. All of the sudden you have this surging feeling that you are leaving your body. You step outside of yourself and see the world from a different perspective. Most of the time the moments come to me as a view of the divine. I see an everyday thing, blades of grass, a flower, a butterfly; generally something in nature. All of the sudden it seems to be the center of everything. It is the only thing I can focus on. It's like in a movie where they suddenly zoom in on something. Everything is in perfect clarity and the object in question is in perfect composition. It is, for a split second, the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. If I am lucky enough to have a camera with me, these are the moments I whip it out and capture the beauty.
But there is another type of Real Life Surreal Moment. It's where I feel like I am in the last scene of Far and Away
with Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman when Tom is dying and his soul is drifting up to heaven and the camera drifts up looking down. But in the Real Life Surreal Moment, I drift up a little, stop, and then watch what is going on.
So this morning on the way to work, I had one. It was awesome. I was driving over a hill on 635 stuck in traffic and listening to the Garden State Soundtrack. At the top of the hill, I looked out in front of me through my dirty windshield and saw a stream of cars all moving slowly toward their destination--their tail lights looking like glowing jelly beans--a glass building to my right was softly reflecting the morning light. I drifted up and saw the surreal beauty of the situation. The composition. I felt drifty and peaceful watching the world work. I felt like I was watching a movie. It would come in waves for the next couple of minutes. It was such a wonderful feeling. So bizarre to see the beauty in Rush Hour.
Real Life Surreal Moments give me confidence. I'm not sure why. I think it's because I am seeing something I know no one else sees at that particular moment. Or maybe feeling something no one else feels at that particular moment. I have tried to share the moments with people, and sometimes they see the beauty, but they never get the same chill I get from the moment. They are my moments.
Do you ever have your own moments?