I need sleep.
I spend 8 hours in my bed, and I fall asleep quickly, but I might as well have a 2 month old baby. I wake up 4 times a night. Every two hours or so. It is really starting to suck. I have done everything that is suggested to get better sleep except completely give up caffeine, but I stop drinking it between three and four every day. I don't drink much alcohol, and virtually none at all during the week. I have dark curtains so it stays dark in my room. It's cool in my room, but not cold. I have a fan for white noise so I don't get woken by things like my cats wrestling. I have even been going to bed at the same time every night (even on most weekend nights!) for a couple of months now. Yet, I still wake up at the same exact times every night. The worst one is 6:40am because I have to get up for work at 7. And when I say I wake up at the same time each night, I mean I wake up at the same time down to the minute. I might as well have an alarm clock.
I am just about to my wits end with this new habit my body has deemed necessary. I am getting very close to calling my doctor and requiring a prescription of Lunesta. There is no cause for this insomnia that I can see. It's simply some new habit, and I can't break it because it is happening in my subconscience. When I was in high school I had insomnia too, but then it was falling asleep. Not staying asleep. I seem to have insomnia in little bursts now and then, but usually they go away after a month or so and are caused by some kind of stressor. In those cases though, I wake up thinking about something. There is an obvious issue floating in my brain. But not right now. Right now, I just wake up as though I had slept a full night, look at the clock and then stare at it for the next 30 minutes. Tossing and turning. I might start thinking about some worry, but it is definitely not what is waking me.
So frustrating. I just want a couple good nights of sleep with maybe 5 straight hours of snooze time. God that would be great...
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